About 90 percent of everything I did this past week was new.
On Tuesday, I began a three-month stint as an assistant metro editor, working day shifts and commuting to downtown like a "normal" person. Traffic! Parking! Alarm going off at 6:45! All of these are things that are perfectly routine to most people, but they represented a huge lifestyle change for me. I'm amazed at the physical adjustment and how difficult it has been. I feel very tired, and it's been a challenge to fall asleep, to run or work out after work, and to stick to my nutrition plan, eating at different times of day. It also has been a bit of a challenge to get used to my new assignment. I work with entirely different people, so I need to learn the personalities in addition to the workflow and the responsibilities. Essentially, I'm changing jobs without changing companies. And in truth, I'd forgotten how hard it is to be The New Guy. I am a competent, capable, hard-working person, so I feel very vulnerable right now, which also has proved to be rather energy-sapping. Outside of work, I attended my first Boardway Bound training session at the Fine Arts Fund. My hope is to turn that program into a chance to build some meaningful relationships and begin volunteering in the arts community. And this morning, I rose at 5:30 to run with some new friends in a training session at Lunken -- 13.1 miles! That's a new way to spend Saturday morning! I'm trying to embrace all this change. I have not been loving my life for a while. (And by "a while," I mean about two years.) But new things are terrifying to a planner like me. There is much room to fail and make mistakes and disappoint. I don't want to throw my life into total upheaval just for the sake of making a move and calling it progress. But I also know that I can't stick with the status quo, because it just has not been working. So I have a lot of adjusting to do and countless questions to answer. In the meantime, all I can do is pray for some guidance toward the right path. And maybe for lighter morning traffic through the Cut in the Hill.
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